trinityhawk

01:20 am: Up Close

Up Close
Originally uploaded by TrintonC.

I took this today at the peir. I am very happy with the capture. I have it shown on Flickr.com Here: Up Close come on over and comment, help me make #1 viewed photo.

T

12:49 pm: Make a Difference

Make a Difference
Originally uploaded by TrintonC.

This is one of several motivational/insperational posters I am creating with my photography. Let me know what you think, I am hoping to get a book published with these and to also make some posters up and use them in my workshops.

OH I have also contacted a company that sells motivational posters and hoping they will like my creations...what do you think?

04:10 pm: Diversity

Diversity
Originally uploaded by Trinitys Designs.

I am starting to create a series of insperational posters..what do you think of my first one? I am using my own photography.

01:50 pm: Letting Lose

Letting Lose
Originally uploaded by Trinitys Designs.

One of the pictures I took for my daughter's Senior Picture photoshoot. I like her experssion it shows she was relaxing and having fun with the shoot. She is so pretty and I am so proud of her even if I do worry to much according to her.

01:31 pm: Pictures!!!
Ok if you all want to SEE what I have been up to then here are some pictures for you.   Some are of my daughter's senior picture photoshoot that we did last week at the bitanical garden, some are of the flowers at the bitanical garden, and some are updates on how I look now.  Have fun and please let me know what your thoughts are on my photographs or anything else.

Peace and Blessings 

T
http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p191/TrinityHawk/Selfportraits001.jpg
(this is rather blurry because I was taking it of myself with the timer on the camera..but it shows me next to my weight set I have been using a lot of LOL)

http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p191/TrinityHawk/thinking.jpg
(This is one my daughter took of me just a few days ago)

http://s128.photobucket.com/albums/p191/TrinityHawk/Anny%20Senior%20Pics/
(Senior Picture Photoshoot)

http://s128.photobucket.com/albums/p191/TrinityHawk/Flowers/
(Flower Photoshoot)

Tags: art, flowers, photography, photos, self portraits, senior

12:20 pm: Update:
well shoot..my computer just hic-uped and I lost everything I wrote.  Lets try this again:

I had a friend request an update so here goes:

I withdrew from school this last semester due to medical problems that my doctor and I are working on together.  I am getting better and hope to be back in school by next semester.

I am still working at the art gallery as curator and having a blast.   I was offered a paying job but not a lot of money or secure job (since it is working on grants).  I tried to get an appointment with one of my caseworkers either at SSI or DSS to talk about this thing called "a ticket to work" and how that works out for disabled people who WANT to work.

I keep telling people the reason for me going back to school is to get a job I can do and so I don't have to be on SSI any longer.  

I actually had someone I know ask me: If you are capable of getting SSI why do you want to work? They are handing you money and you can do what ever you want.  POINT BEING...I worked for that money all these years until I became disabled and so it isn't being "handed to me".  Second point: I WANT to work, I don't like just sitting around. Third point: they don't pay you enough to pay your bills and do what ever you want!  I would love to have a job that is understanding of my disabilities (which I do at this moment) but pays me enough to pay my bills and still do some of the things I want at least. (which I don't at this moment).

I have truly found my nitch however and that is art and administration.  I love this job so much, and my hours are flexible.  I can work at home part of the time and if I am sick I can stay home and work or make up the hours by going in at a different time then "scheduled", as long as there is some one who can cover the hours that the gallery is open.

My daughter is doing better. I am actually watching her grow up some and being a bit easier to get along with *smile*.  

My mom's health isn't doing so well and that is part of the reason I spend so much time at home when I do is because I want to spend time with her.

I have continued to lift weights and exercise and I have lost almost down past the 240 point.  But, better yet I have lost several pants sizes and when I went and bought my new jeans and pants last night I was able to buy a Large instead of going into the extra or 2/3 extra large area of clothing.  I have a friend coming over today and we are going to clean out my basement and turn it into a work out room / studio.

I need the studio because the one I had upstairs was turned into a kitchenette and I have been showing my art a lot more, have had it in three different exhibits this past year so far, plus I had two of my pieces published in two different calenders for 2007.

So, life is moving right along, not always as fast as I would like, or in the directions I would choose but I am holding on for the ride and enjoying every inch of it.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and I hope to hear from you soon.

Tags: health issues, t, trinityhawk, update

09:34 am: New Exhibit Coming Up
We have new exhibit coming up Friday 17, 2006 at 6pm til 8 or 9pm. 2nd Annual Healing Arts Exhibit featuring three different sections to the show the first section opening reception is Friday 17 at the Adams Art Gallery (of course) and features the Chicago Traveling Exhibit "Vitnam Veterans Traveling Exhibit".

Then Saturday is my daughter's 17th birthday and we are having a coming of age cerimony. Anyone that knows her is welcome to come (Meg, Devyan, Jen, Viki, Sam (of course your her godmother LOL), Joey, Jewels, anyone who knows her and respects her relgion. If you are intrested in coming please contact me and I will give you more information.

So, this weekend is pretty much busy (as usal). I also have been working out every other evening with a buddy of mine trying hard to get into shape and lose weight.

Ok will post again in the near future I hope. I have to run and get a shower I have a business meeting in Jamestown at noon.

Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving!

09:54 am: ANNOUNCING!!

October 13th, 2006 at 6pm I will be taking part in a joint photo exhibit that I am curating.  There will be 10 different photographers exhibiting and selling their art, myself included.

I have spent the this full day having prints made, making prints, and purchasing matts and frames.

I will be spending the rest of this week putting it all together and preparing it for hanging.  The art gets hung Monday the 9th from noon until most likely 6pm. 

We will be cleaning the gallery the 7th with a whole slow of volenteers that I rangled into helping with promise of pizza party.

Then Oct. 13th the whole sha-bang kicks off at 6pm with a rocking reception with food, fun, and music.

Hope some of you who live close enough will make it:

Access to the Arts - Adams Art Gallery

600 Central Ave. Dunkirk, NY 14048

10:40 pm: Health what is that? Stress this I know!

I went back to the hospital today and found out I have phemonia (sp).  They said stress on my lungs were effecting my asthma and my astma and coughing was putting stress on my heart.  Everytime I cough I have an ashtma attack and then my heart goes spastic and it feels like someone is pushing down on my chest or have set a concret brick on my chest pushing all the air out of my lungs.

So, now I am on antibotics..script strength sinus meds..nausa meds (to counteract the antibotic side effect)..nose spray..and a jumbo inhaler that I have to use every 3-4 hours or as needed.

This is on top of my normal meds which includes celebrex, testred, 1,000mg tylonal, synthoid, claritan, and flo vent.

This health scare, plus the fact that I had a manic attack this past weekend which I haven't had in months, has made me stop and take a really hard look at my life.  Where do I go from here? I want to be around for my daughter for several years to come to see my grandkids, to spend time with my wife living in the same home.  I don't want my mom to have to face out living another of her children.  She already has outlived three of her children another one would not be something she could live with.

I have a job I love but it doesn't pay much, sometimes nothing at all.  But I have SSI even though that isn't enough to pay much bills (that is why, partly, I live with my mother, we help each other out). That is another of my reasons for being scared with this health issue because my mom may tell herself and everyone she is self sufficiant and indpendent but she needs me too.  She is blind and has many health problems, including, ephsema.  Who will take care of her if something happens to me.

So, now I have some serious thinking to do. 

1. Do I drop out of school for a couple of semesters to get my health back to par

2. Do I quit the job I love but doesn't pay (because it is obvious I can't do both and take care of my family too)

3. Do I continue what I am doing and pray I can keep up the schedule and stress.

Plus, on top of all this our roommate (my ex) who lives in the extra room downstairs has just told me he plans to move in about two months which means there is $500 extra bills that need to be paid.

I have an appointment tomorrow with Finicial aid office to see what can be done.  I want to see if I can drop down to part time and maybe switch majors even if I have to take an extra semester or something. I know I will lose my grants but I don't know about my loans.

Plus, that is something else if I do drop out I will have to start paying my loans back on top of not having the refunds to put towards bills.

So what do I do???  who knows! Off to do some more thinking....

01:15 pm:

This photo is done by Henri Peter and is titled: "Red and Proud"
I could look at Henri's paintings all day!

I had a friend post this for me on another site and I thought I would re-post it into my blog.

Silence, they say, is the voice of complicity.
But silence is impossible.
Silence screams.
Silence is a message,
just as doing nothing is an act.
Let who you are ring out & resonate
in every word & every deed.
Yes, become who you are.
There's no sidestepping your own being
or your own responsibility.
What you do is who you are.
You are your own comeuppance.
You become your own message.
You are the message.

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We are all responsible for our own actions and our own message that we portray to the rest of the world. We are either one thing and portray another to the world or we can be and portray the same message. Which do you think will bring the highest level of balance into your life? 

I know my own power, I know my own message and who I am and I do not doubt it for a moment. Listen to your heart not your eyes or mind.

Blessings to all may life treat you good and may you always be happy with your personal message.

This is the prayer I say every morning and I try to live my life by: 


Great Spirit Prayer 

"Oh, Great Spirit, whose voice I hear in the wind,

Whose breath gives life to all the world.

Hear me; I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty, and make my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make my hands respect the things you have made and my ears sharp to hear your voice

Make me wise so that I may understand the things you have taught my people.

Help me to remain calm and strong in the face of all that comes towards me.

Let me learn the lessons you have hidden in every leaf and rock.

Help me seek pure thoughts and act with the intention of helping others.

Help me find compassion without empathy overwhelming me.

I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother,

but to fight my greatest enemy Myself.

Make me always ready to come to you with clean hands and straight eyes.

So when life fades, as the fading sunset, my spirit may come to you without shame.